[ tadashi says quietly, firmly, two syllables cutting through the chaos of ainosuke's roiling emotions. in the wake of the breakdown, he knows, too, that ainosuke has never been more vulnerable, the sea of pain and anger and turmoil and the impossible longing, hurting and raw across the chasm they have made for themselves.
tadashi aches for him, his heart clenching at the sight of ainosuke like he's never seen before, in the limited moonlight, crimson eyes blazing in the dark. ainosuke has suffered for years, hurting and lashing out, and tadashi has taken everything that he has to dole out. he looks up into that handsome, pale face, reminded of what remains after a storm, and he reaches to cup his cheek.
the chips have fallen where they ought, and tadashi has been given leave to finally bridge the distance. so bridge he does, cupping ainosuke's face with unyielding tenderness, bolstered by his unwavering, unrelenting love for him, no matter the weight of his transgressions. tadashi has sinned against him, but his desire for redemption is part of what brought them here, securing ainosuke in his loneliness.
his other hand smoothes up to splay possessively over the span of his back. he coils around ainosuke again, his lips pressing against the side of his mouth. ainosuke is heartbreakingly beautiful when he falls apart, but tadashi will put him back together again. ]
I will never leave you, I promise.
[ ainosuke is the light of his life, the one thing that tadashi finds himself orbiting around, for better or worse. he doesn't look away when they're practically nose to nose, and it is now or never for tadashi, to bridge that gap anew and to fill the emptiness with everything he has ever wanted to tell him. he has left his own feelings buried for too long, his love for ainosuke hidden underneath guilt and penance. guilt, it seems, is a paralyser that has dammed them both.
tadashi's next words are just as raw, just as true. in the mire of muddled words and the fierce desperation of long-buried sentiment, tadashi will provide clarity. ]
no subject
[ tadashi says quietly, firmly, two syllables cutting through the chaos of ainosuke's roiling emotions. in the wake of the breakdown, he knows, too, that ainosuke has never been more vulnerable, the sea of pain and anger and turmoil and the impossible longing, hurting and raw across the chasm they have made for themselves.
tadashi aches for him, his heart clenching at the sight of ainosuke like he's never seen before, in the limited moonlight, crimson eyes blazing in the dark. ainosuke has suffered for years, hurting and lashing out, and tadashi has taken everything that he has to dole out. he looks up into that handsome, pale face, reminded of what remains after a storm, and he reaches to cup his cheek.
the chips have fallen where they ought, and tadashi has been given leave to finally bridge the distance. so bridge he does, cupping ainosuke's face with unyielding tenderness, bolstered by his unwavering, unrelenting love for him, no matter the weight of his transgressions. tadashi has sinned against him, but his desire for redemption is part of what brought them here, securing ainosuke in his loneliness.
his other hand smoothes up to splay possessively over the span of his back. he coils around ainosuke again, his lips pressing against the side of his mouth. ainosuke is heartbreakingly beautiful when he falls apart, but tadashi will put him back together again. ]
I will never leave you, I promise.
[ ainosuke is the light of his life, the one thing that tadashi finds himself orbiting around, for better or worse. he doesn't look away when they're practically nose to nose, and it is now or never for tadashi, to bridge that gap anew and to fill the emptiness with everything he has ever wanted to tell him. he has left his own feelings buried for too long, his love for ainosuke hidden underneath guilt and penance. guilt, it seems, is a paralyser that has dammed them both.
tadashi's next words are just as raw, just as true. in the mire of muddled words and the fierce desperation of long-buried sentiment, tadashi will provide clarity. ]
I love you. I never stopped.